From 1 to 3

In just 2 short years, my child has gone from a silly little 1 year old that doesn't walk all that well to a little girl that tells me about her favorite part of her day and sings songs all the way home from school. Where in the world does time go? She is such a blessing!

Comfortable

Comfortable that is word that makes me feel good. I picture roomy sweat pants, a cozy blanket, a cold Diet Coke, maybe a good movie.... comfortable is great way to feel. I was thinking about this this weekend. The problem is, I feel like sometimes I get a little too "comfortable" in my relationship with Christ. There are days I get up, hustle to get ready for work and get Ella ready, say goodbye to the hubby and race to work. I work all day just to hustle home, eat dinner and end my day with fluff on TV. Where was my time with God? Did I just once look around me and take in what God has created for His children? I'm constantly struggling with myself for not being the Christian I'm supposed to be. "Today is a new day. I will do what I'm supposed to do. I'll spend quiet time in His Word, enjoy what He has created and love my neighbor, no matter what they say, do or believe." One rude driver on the way to work and I'm already in a bad mood. I've already forgotten my quiet time. By dinner, I realize not once did I appreciate my blessings. It's all back to my Earthly routine. Ahhhh! So frustrating! The saying is "life got in the way." I always thought that was so stupid, because life is what you make it, right? Well, I think I get it now. My Earthly life got in the way and honestly, no one can change that, but me. I made life comfortable and boring and without Him in all I do. Sad. I'm tired of being comfortable. I'm tired of telling myself TODAY IS THE DAY! I am a sinner. I am not the person I want to be. I am not the mother and wife I want to be... yet. I know I'll always be a sinner. I know that I can't change that, but I CAN bury myself in Him, through His Word and in all His blessings. I know I can. I'm tired of the sweat pants.